Do you believe in MAGIC?

9th March 2020

[PUBLIC] 23:25 - Mon 9th Mar 2020|

[ THIS JOURNAL IS MOSTLY PUBLIC ]

After much deliberation over this I have decided that I have very little to hide.

It had been almost four years since thing journal went completely friends only, and the reasons for me doing so no longer stand at this time.

As such, this journal is public as of May 11th 2006.

I would prefer if my journal is added to your friends' list that you comment before doing so, however it is not a requirement.

So, some basics about me before you consider adding:

¨ Over the years I've gotten a lot of nicknames with various backstories of awesomeness. I go by a couple of them these days and they include the every popular Ghost (varients include Ghostie, Ghostable, Ghostiekins and so on and so forth...) and Kyuu. I rarely use my 'real' name and only really find it is used by people who are either not close to me or in my family, so please don't be offended if I deny that information - it's a good thing.

¨ I'm English. Yes indeed, I'm one of those British types that adds extra vowels to American words that were originally ours in the first place. We like to add extra 'H's in words, in case some herbs come along, because we don't want herbs to become extinct over here, unlike in the US of A where they have had their 'H's blown off, possibly by a space monkey. I hate to disappoint, but I seem to whenever I say I don't live in London. I live, currently, in a little harbour town of Torquay.

¨ I live with two of the most wonderful people I have had the good fortune of knowing; Saku and Sallie. Every moment spent with the two of them is a joy and this journal often mentions our various crazy exploits.

¨ As well as the two people mentioned above I have many loves who live not quite so close to home, including the irreplacable JD, who I love so very dearly it's not even funny, the last hopeless romantic Owen, the fabulous Gem, My lovelies; Shahnini, ~~Seme-sama~~ Qingness and Kagable who spin my world around, and many of the loves here.

¨ My life as it is stands is on hold due to an illness I have called Chronic Fatigue Syndrome - CFS/ME. This means I've had to stop pretty much everything I've been doing lately including my life at University and my part-time work. It's a bit shitty, but I will be resuming university life in 2008, ill or otherwise. This illness sometimes effects my attention span and varies from day to day. I use this journal at times to document how my condition is progressing. It does get me down and as expected I am likely to vent here also. Apologies in advance if it ever seems I'm ignoring anyone contacting me via LJ or otherwise. Nine out of ten times it's nothing personal.

¨ I'm into various fandoms, but rarely am active in any of them. I'm not big on fanfiction these days and fanart is few and far between. Honestly, I'm more interested in original writing and art which when done is posted here.

¨ I'm a cosplayer and attend as many UK anime conventions/Expos as possible. I tend to announce where and when I'm going to these things weeks in advance and I'm always happy to meet people, hang out, ramble, chat and whatnot.

¨ One day, I will do something awesome. Even if no-one knows I did it. As long as I have memories and feel proud to have done it I'll be happy.

If you have any questions and do not wish to ask my via comments feel free to E-mail me.

Thank you for your time and patience ♥

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5th July 2008

[PUBLIC] 23:23 - Sat 5th Jul 2008|

So, today I went with my folks to Totnes for a bit and I honestly don't think we've ever laughed so hard together in a very long time. If at all. It was really nice. We were musing on old trips to Spain and things I could remember doing and saying when I was a kid, like my earliest memories. It was really happy making and I'm glad I went even if mom was complaining about the weather. To be fair, it was raining hard all day and still is.

But~ I did get my hands on a new coat and omg it's so sexy. Photos do not do it justic even if

xaerael was a wonderful photographer for me again ♥

( Much camwhoring oh noes! )

But yeah, lots of rain here has caused leaks in the main bedroom ._. Landlord is coming by Monday to look at it and the damp in general so that's a bit sucky and it means rushing around cleaning. You know that stage of cleaning where it looks like a BOMB has hit? Yeahhh... we're at that stage currently. I should get back to it...

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4th July 2008

[PUBLIC] 12:42 - Fri 4th Jul 2008|

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[PUBLIC] 12:37 - Fri 4th Jul 2008|

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30th June 2008

[PUBLIC] 19:35 - Mon 30th Jun 2008|

This is a post just to mention

drazzi! Because I love my

drazzi and everyone must know that I love the

drazzi so very much because she is the one and only

drazzi~

~♥~♥~

drazzi~♥~♥~!

Aka, I didn't mention Sal in my last post and I said I'd make it up to her >3

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[PUBLIC] 09:07 - Mon 30th Jun 2008|

Hmm... That is sort of confusing and disappointing, but... meh. What can be done? [/cryptic]

I got the

creatore_magico Super Smash Bros Brawl on the Wii and much fun is being had with it. Even if I am spending most of the time eyeing up Shiek's butt... Mmmm ♥ Maybe a code to be put up later? Who knows, we shall see~

The gerbils are still alive and we has a

rwylin_ni over at the moment with whom we went to see Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian the other day and that was fine as a fantasy-type movie thing.

I'm kinda lazy updating lately but I feel like I should.

D&D? I don't know what to make of it yet, but

xaerael has been running a game for us so while I adjust myself to the bard class and bicker with party mates I have to decide if I get on with the style or not. Missing CM. Can we plz be Skyping the

richardiii for gamings soon kthxmaybe? ♥

Chattering with the

ruxi makes me feel I need some new games to play around in. It's summer, the RP season... What games be new/opening, people~? :D

Er... hmmm... brain-fart? :B Yeah. I believe so.

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19th June 2008

[PUBLIC] 22:15 - Thu 19th Jun 2008|

So. Today, I got my ass kicked at bowling by

rwylin_ni's three-year-old ~~but he did have a ramp to help with that ass-kicking~~, forced myself onto DDR for the first time in years and shot some pixel-gunmen on Time Crisis [insert number here]. All in all, a good day I feel spent with the Rwy,

xaerael,

creatore_magico and

jadeica. Only our group could associate bowling balls with Phoenix Wright characters. Oi. I weep for our kind...

After that... Rwy and Xae went out to get Xae's gerbils. They have been in the plans for a while so now we have a little black gerbil called Fate and a little straw one called Nanoha. Xae's lame names, not ours, I will point out swiftly. Oh. And they're both boys. Soooo... it's Nanoha gender-swap, furry slash. Hmmm.

( Read more... )

Aaaaand I filled in a questionnaire for the local health center for a M.E/CFS report being done by a trainee clinical psychologist from Plymouth university. I'll ramble if/when I get results of that, but it's mostly a note for myself. I might get called up for a interview later. We'll see. Hmm...

Now I have Dexter DVDs that my folks got for me ♥ Needs moar. Oh yessss plz.

And if I start re-reading X Guess who I'm blaming... e____________e I'm lookin' at choo...

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[PUBLIC] 17:04 - Thu 19th Jun 2008|

G... GERBILS!

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18th June 2008

[PUBLIC] 12:27 - Wed 18th Jun 2008|

Yesterday was really awesome, but totally killed me.

See, the petrol strike is making life not so easy and with plans to go for a meal in Plymouth on very little fuel in the car is never a promising prospect. After effectively rolling around Torquay we did find a place that had some petrol, even if it was limited to £10 per customer. Anyways, it was enough to get us where we wanted to go and there was tasty tempura and teriyaki steak. Happy Ghostie is happy.

Thank you to everyone who threw me birthday wishes and gifts yesterday, it was so very much appreciated ;_; ♥

But yeah, much heavy-bodied tiredness today, but tis the price we play for such things.

Will catch up... later x_x

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15th June 2008

[PUBLIC] 14:23 - Sun 15th Jun 2008|

~~i hate chiwawaaaas~~

creatore_magico hijacked my laptop. Ask not the context.

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14th June 2008

[PUBLIC] 13:14 - Sat 14th Jun 2008|

It's that time again. Apologies for scaring anyone, but as many people should recall from last year when this went on "April Fools" stype humour doesn't really sit well with me.

But... guys. Zombies. How could we not? Any excuse to get chewed on and fall over with a camera.

The only things harmed in the making of BLITEOTW08 was my shirt and jeans which ended up covered in food colouring syurp. Which, by the way, tasted vile.

Fun tiems, though. I assure you, until next year, there will be no more posts like that, I promise.

...but like I say, any excuse to beat off zombies with a kitchen knife which, frankly, was all I had at such short notice.

♥ :)?

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13th June 2008

[PUBLIC] 21:58 - Fri 13th Jun 2008|

Shit. Xae and Saku haven;t come back yet.

shit. what the hell do i do?

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10th June 2008

[PUBLIC] 21:09 - Tue 10th Jun 2008|

I would like to point out that I may be odd, but Saku sticks poker ships to sweets with bluetac.

There is no other point to this post.

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[PUBLIC] 12:21 - Tue 10th Jun 2008|

xaerael: I don't like slush.

...fair enough, that is.

So, the LJ for a while has been used to record my ill-times for my own personal reference so I should make note that the last couple of days have not been very good. Picking up a bit now, but ughhh. Not fun.

Went to Bristol with my dad to pick up mom. She came back from Spain on Friday and stayed with her mom and sister for a few days, then we went to get her. It was a nice day and car-ride. Then~ we went for dinner at Sandra's and the lovely family which was a joy as ever. And they have a puppy, omg. And of course, I showed the kidlings of the house how to do Resident Evil 4 properly >:3 Mwahaha.

But sadly, that day killed me yesterday x_x;;

Xae is comparing me to the singer of Cradle of Filth due to the height thing. I think I need to punt a Xae now e____e

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4th June 2008

[PUBLIC] 21:37 - Wed 4th Jun 2008|

My personality type: the dreamy idealist

Woooo, little cute buttons of personality popping up everywhere so why the hell not.

So, I'm lazy updating it seems but there's not a lot I have to talk to lately.

Currently, myself and the roomies are watching The Pick of Destiny... My music-lovin' roomies are loving it and get all the music-type jokes, but it's thus far random and awesome and D-ish.

Prior to this there was even more siilliness with the playing of Sonic 3 and Sonic & Knuckles on the ~~Megadrive~~ Gamecube for a slice of nostalgia. Old sk00l Sonic makes me happy. I used to play all the time when I was a kid. S-so much love. I wonder where my old actual carts are :\

Last week~ we got a package from Japan. Our Nakki sent us Death Note figures, random gashapon, candies and a pretty paperfan. Aaaaaaand, most amazingly awesome of all ( Spoilers within; )

So... Mononoke is pretty confusing but oddly awesome and I need to watch more when this movie is done. I must also force Xae to watch more Code Geass because avoidance needs kicking in the ass.

Hmm. And stuff. If my general moodiness is persisting of late I apologise greatly .-.

To app a new character at Poly or not... Umming and ahhing about that but I'm waiting on apps for other places so... \._./ Related but not, I partly want to kick some people's asses for being generally avoidant and suchlike. Grr bitchwhinemoan, and all that.

Sexy Matt from high school crashed over yesterday afternoon and much fun and gay things were spoken of, as they usually are. Over tea and suchlike. He's the only person I've kept in touch with since school and he's still a total ~~fag~~ love. He wants to go paint a cup with a cow on saying "Moo" for his boyfriend.

I don't know either.

He did tell us an epic story while I was making tea for him, however.

Matt: So. We were in a lift, me, my mom and dad and sam, my brother, going into a lift in a hotel with a load of shopping.

dr_ghost,

creatore_magico &

xaerael: *listening intently*
Matt: And it had this like gauge of how heavy the number of people were in the lift and when it got to red no more people were allowed in. So, we started going up and of course the gravity makes us heavier and we go into the red. Sam starts panicking and looking through the shopping bags then goes "QUICK! Somebody drink the water!"

dr_ghost,

creatore_magico &

xaerael: . . .
Matt: And I was like... You twat!

The context that lead up to that was I made tea but automatically put too many sugars in Matt's tea so instead dumped my own tea and the fail-tea into the big I'M THE DADDY™ mug and said it needed more sugar... But the rest of the household insisted that it was the same volume of tea and sugar as normal so the sugar to tea ratio was correct.

Simpletons :|

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2nd June 2008

[PUBLIC] 13:46 - Mon 2nd Jun 2008|

queen_qing: I WANT SYPHILLIS.

Context is for the weak.

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26th May 2008

[PUBLIC] 12:37 - Mon 26th May 2008|

Hooome and aching and sore... but HOME *__*

Long post later, flopping now, kthx.

And good god I'm on 4chan. Scary shit, man, scary shit.

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21st May 2008

[PUBLIC] 12:47 - Wed 21st May 2008|

Y HALO THAR, post that I started yesterday...

SO... I was washed ~~yesterday~~ on Tuesday DDD: SHOCKING, I know. No really, I got a haircut and colour yesterday before

xaerael helped* me with my Geass cosplay and contacts came ~~today~~ yesterday ~~much squeaking came from the bathroom when I tried thesm on, oh noes ;;~~

And today must be spent, for the first part, going for my first cognitive behavial therapy. No, I'm not losing it, it's for 'teh ill', I assure you. Still, I'm nervous as holy hell, even though it's the same guy my Ku saw for other reasons and he is apparently lovely and he did help a lot.

Aside from that, I must keep stabbing myself in the fingers and tell myself NEVER to do handstitched emblems for cosplay ever again. for a first try, honestly, it could be a lot worse compared to how it's looking so far but still sdnkanjnakjsanfkja

SO. LONDON EXPO, PEOPLE!
Clearly said like it is THE best thing ever though I'm 100% sure it's not even close to the epic that is Fanime and all the other funky stuff going on this week XD;;; Shh. I get to buy hotdogs and prance around like a freak for a couple of days.

Hiatus from here until Sunday/Monday, most likely. If you see me online first ask me if I'm sewing, if I say yes expect slow replies, if I say no... for the love of god tell me to get to it, or else!

*More like saved me and is effectively making my cosplay.

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19th May 2008

[PUBLIC] 13:30 - Mon 19th May 2008|

Ohohohoho~

♥ HMD Meme? ♥

I'm only posting Kyouya because he's the one I'm most curious about, really. C'mon now, tell me what you think ;D

Rough day was rough yesterday, but it's sunny today and as ever I am loved so there isn't much I can do to complain at all.

Trying to stop being such a loser, but this may be a huge thing to try and over-ride. Modly-type duties for today are done, long over due clean ups and whatnot. Posting needs to be done, culling of characters and games (*WEEP*) for the sake of more activity with others, apps to may write, tags to reply to, posts to make, ROing to do, Expo cosplaying to finish up, contacts to order, tickets have arrived and I need to write up the CM character sheets and send them off to

richardiii so he has stats and whatnot.

This post is effectively a "HO-BOY, GHOST. YOU GOT A LOT TO BE GETTING ON WITH, SON!" post.

Aside from yesterday's quote of the day;

dr_ghost: Ku, why is your hat full of Wetabix?

creatore_magico: They're for you!

dr_ghost: . . .

creatore_magico: You like 'em, don't you?

dr_ghost: Yes...

creatore_magico: So what's the problem? :D

dr_ghost: . . .

A photo would have come to prove this above quote, but I can't find the lead for my camera-phone. WOE! /o\

I did do something I haven't done for a longass time, though...

↟↟
Got a level on my priest ;D 94, baby! It only took fifty MILLION years because I've lost a lot of love for RO. But apparently, said priest of mine and

xaerael's sniper are going to get married. This is good, right? Or... am I entering my dear cleric into an abusive relationship?! I believe it will be the latter.

I am restless and desperately wanting some Geass RP (that is NOT dressingroom, before anyone suggests it, I am in DESPAIR with such games) Any ideas where a Ghostie could prod around with a Lelouch for a short time, perhaps? T_T/

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17th May 2008

[PUBLIC] 00:05 - Sat 17th May 2008|

I. Fucking. Hate. Spiders. As stated here which shows striking resembelence to what happened here.

Holy crap. I've never going in the sodding livingroom again. EVER.

Until tomorrow.

nsdkjnjksanfkjsfnskjanfajnask!!!! DO NOT WANT {{{T___T}}}

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16th May 2008

[PUBLIC] 14:55 - Fri 16th May 2008|

The

richardiii has gone. But tis not a goodbye, just a see you later, as they ever are. I'm not sure what else to say on that aside from the fact there have good times and I hope we see him again soon. I mean, we're going to see him next weekend for the Expo but y'know, whatever.

Live-action Chimeran Mirage-ness one day getting to NPC one of my favourite characters of his? Yes. Please. Sign me up. Fun tiems, yo!

Aside from that there is not much to report. Cosplays need getting done for Saturday, Geass needs watching, Skype needs using, RPs need activity, AIM needs dusting off (apologies to those I was chatting to a few nights back and got stolen away from mid-convo, please forgive my fail /o\) and errrrr... stuff.

xaerael is moving stuff around and there are Evas on the sofa, Gundams on the table and suchlike.

Ughhh... lazy post. Not feeling it today. But yeah... stuff and things and whatnot.

I do have benoffee pie, though.

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14th May 2008

[PUBLIC] 12:36 - Wed 14th May 2008|

So, I should do a pretentious post about how M.E has effected my life and all that jazz and try and make it as non-sobstory as possible. I'm not sure how well I'll do, but we'll see how it goes.

Tl;dr sure to ensue.

It's all well and good me saying "OMG! This M.E/CFS stuff! It's bad, it's nasty, this is what it's like and BE AWARE!" but the truth of it is that it's very hard to explain and even more difficult to understand and empathise with unless you've gone through it yourself.

I was officially diagnosed with CFS (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) in late April of 2007 by an M.E/CFS specialist in the area but of course that was not when it started. I started my English course at university in September 2006 and by October was finding focusing difficult. It was hard to get up in the morning, and not just the whining "Aww, mom, I don't want to go to school todaaaaaaaay!" whine it was a near tears "I can't get up." kind of whine. I took a forty minute train to university and many times kind people woke me in my seat in case I missed my stop and ended up several stations into Cornwall by mistake. Wonderful strangers.

For a long time I thought I was being lazy, not wanting to work or not wanting to be there. I went to see the student consoler who wondered if I was suffering from depression. However, after chatting her she didn't seem to find anything suggested cause and that instead I saw a saw a doctor.

Before university though I would go through, during my time at college, I would find it difficult to stay awake in class and upon returning home (as I'm sure friends I had at the time can testify) I would fall asleep during visits or through movies. So many good films and anime I've missed important sections of because I couldn't stay awake.

Even as far back as in school, before my GCSEs when I came home from school the first thing I'd do was sleep until dinner. Not very healthy fifteen/sixteen year old behaviour.

So... technically, from around fifteen/sixteen to present where I'm twenty-one I've apparently been suffering from this thing. Strange when I sit and think about it.

This journal has sixty uses of my 'cfs' tag (and one 'csf' which shows my fail) as of April last year and another seven of the same tag on a private journal made mostly for venting about exactly this subject.

Today, I bumped into someone I knew in college and he said despite everything I was looking well and I guess that's true. I'm walking around now, I was awake at 8am, I even helped with some cleaning at the hotel

creatore_magico works at. This is good, most surely, but 'teh ill' as I've been affectionately calling it comes and goes in terms of intensity. Some days I can get up, hop around, even dance a bit and others, with no warning, can have me bed/sofa bound and hardly able to sit up.

Here are some other brief quotes on what having M.E is like because it's not just physical but mental, too. There are many times my brain shuts down mid flow of thought or sentence. Suddenly forgetting words you know and use on a regular basis is frustrating, distressing and upsetting. For someone who was used to finishing essays for class in a single night and getting good grades it was a big thing to adjust to. Breaking pride enough and admitting you have a debilitating illness for an independent person is one of the hardest things I've had to cope with in the whole time this has been going on.

But as I said yesterday, I've been lucky. I've really keep upbeat about the whole thing as I like to think of myself as an optimist. I've been loved and supported and been in people's thoughts and prayers. Really, I can't express how very vital that was to me coping thus far.

I was originally thinking of looking up all the distressed posts I made during my lowest patches and quoting sections in this post, however this is supposed to be about awareness and hope and all that stuff with gay sparkles. So clearly, I decided against it.

And that's about it. Watch this space, as they say.

And if you want to donate to Action for M.E during the awareness week--stop it, Ghost, they're not interested ;;;;

...I want ice cream.

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13th May 2008

[PUBLIC] 08:20 - Tue 13th May 2008|

I know

drazzi has made an effort to bring this up in past awareness weeks, I want to ramble a bit myself.

May 11th 2008 marks the start of M.E/CFS awareness week.

So naturally, I bring this up on the 13th. Smooth, Ghostie, very smooth indeed.

Still, better late than never as many wise have said, and some not-so-wise who were genuinely late and just wanted to sound cool about it. And ironically, this awareness week comes as I feel the ever frustrating hand of fatigue from exactly that illness creep over me again after several weeks of general 'okay'-ness. Can't be helped and that's just the way it transpires.

I must assume then that I should be making a point about what M.E is as a first point regarding M.E awareness, but as a sufferer at the moment all I can think about is the people who have helped me with this thing. Not helped cure, no, but helped cope, because hell if you can't be cured instantly the next best thing people can do is help you cope.

I have, and I will openly admit this, been insanely lucky with the help and support I've been given. My friends both online and off are all amazing, patient and accommodating. My ever adoring roomies have put up with me going through stages of almost total antisocial behaviour while lovingly making me countless cups of tea and providing a loving and non-judgemental environment. My family also have been nothing short of saints for learning about this illness and coping with me having it so well.

Honestly, I am very lucky indeed and I know not everyone gets that level of love and support.

I guess as a first point about this I just want to say thank you to all those who have helped me hop along this far, put up with my strange sleep patterns, driven me places, kept me company, helped me stand up, didn't get angry when I said I needed to go home and lay down while outside, put up with my fuzzy logic and brain-fog, endured my panic attacks about getting finical aid, and as I have said have just generally been there for me thus far.

To all of you, and there are a lot so I won't name names, thank you. I can never say it enough but I mean it from the bottom of my heart.

That sappy stuff aside for today, I'll no doubt ramble more later. If that wasn't tl;dr for you enough then have a link. It outlines some important facts about M.E/CFS for those who don't know or are curious to know.

As a fair warning, I may well be rambling about this a lot throughout the course of the week. Don't say I didn't warn you. But hey, if you sat through this then that's good and happy making.

And no, I promise this won't be leading to a big "If you can spare just [x] amount of money a week you can help us beat M.E/CFS" campaign from me, I promise. Though if you feel so inclined to actually donate to helping people with M.E I won't stop you and will point you here rather swiftly with a big grin.

Thanks for reading if you got this far :) ♥

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10th May 2008

[PUBLIC] 09:49 - Sat 10th May 2008|

Ahhhh yeah. I've been MIA for about a week for most. Apologies for that I'm sensing a trend with how my LJ posts are opening now /o\ A sick

creatore_magico, a

xaerael moving stuff in, a few floppy days myself and various bits and pieces have caused that. So the laptop has been horribly untouched so emails and things haven't been read in a couple of days and the brief times I have been on I'e missed people. Fail? y/n? Y. I shall fire up the tapflop upon return because currently I have stolen Ku's PC. Evil? Yep, sure. ;;;

ANYWAYS, today I have a visit from my area manager and guy from HR to talk about how I'm doing in general, I guess. Mom is off to Spain on Sunday until June,

richardiii has made me his apprentice in magic. I think that's going well, or at least I think I'm picking up what he's showing me okay and we went to a local magic contest last night. Our magic man won and that was happy making :D

...somehow, I came away with two balloon rabbits to go in my top hat and a balloon lion. No, I don't know either, but it was fun and an experience to say the least. Shattered today, mind you.

STILL! Posts to be made at places, I know~ ~~I swear this faggotry will be kicked in the ass soon.~~

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26th April 2008

[PUBLIC] 15:36 - Sat 26th Apr 2008|

Us: *watching the top 100 movie soundtracks on TMF*

drazzi: I hate these little caption boxes that pop up, the grammar is really bad.

creatore_magico: Yeah they are.

dr_ghost: . . . You mean 'yes they do', Ku.

creatore_magico: Oh yeah~ ;;;

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[PUBLIC] 12:39 - Sat 26th Apr 2008|

↑ Best advert EVER. I lolled.

Last night, amoung other things,

drazzi and I watched Eastern Promises in which all I could think of part way through was "AHHHHHHHHHHH! ARAGORN'S WINGWANG!" as illustrated here, but it was so disturbing to wingwang emapthy everywhere that it needs mentioning again. Good movie, though. Huzzah for the Russian Mafia.

It seemed only fair that I forced the room to watch V for Vendetta again while I flailed happily over Hugo Weaving's awesome masked awesomeness and whatnot.

Aside from that, yesterday was spent being accosted by sexy people, watching Single Female Lawyer and... stuff. Nice lazy day was nice.

Apologies I've been lazy with comment replies. In no way should it reflect on how much I love you D:

( RE: D.Gray-man 157: SPOILERS? )

Okay, done spazzing now.

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24th April 2008

[PUBLIC] 10:23 - Thu 24th Apr 2008|

Oh, dear... What have I done?

Future wife bandaged my hand nicely so now I have my ring finger on my right hand for typing. By the time my middle and forefinger can be used again it'll be a HUGE beefy thing, I swear.

Speaking of the future wife, I need her to watch Geass with meeeee. I need my spaz tiems with SOMEONE. Good God.

The

drazzi is here~ ♥ We went for big slabs of meat for dinner yesterday and wandered around for a walk. Yes, lovelie, a walk. I've been able to do a fair bit of that lately, it makes me happy.

Errrrr... yeah. Stuff! Expect more stuff soon, I'm sure ;p

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23rd April 2008

[PUBLIC] 10:04 - Wed 23rd Apr 2008|

So, I'm finally getting some benefits for not being able to work after almost a year of back and forth bollocks. This, certainly, is good.

I have, however, nobbed my forefinger on my right hand and am currently waiting for

creatore_magico to chow down an icelolly so I can have a splint for afore mentioned nobbed finger. Left and single-handed typing? Made of slow fail.

Our

drazzi comes to see us today ♥ huzzah and squee.

xaerael and

richardiii head home for a bit today to give us house space and I miss you guys terribly still :< So does my nobbed finger ;;;

What bad luck...? More details when I can type? @.@

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14th April 2008

[PUBLIC] 10:04 - Mon 14th Apr 2008|

THE GAME PLAN;

Get up → Shower → Pack → Into

xaerael's car → Go to Stafford → Get a train to Liverpool → Meet a

drazzi → Love her lots for a few days → Repeat in reverse from part six until home again.

Last minute plans, yo. Aren't they awesome?

Stay safe, you guys! Back soon ♥

And in a moment of random meltings... Code Geass R2 episode 2? One of the sexiest episodes I've ever seen of anything EVER * ¬ * God damn, I want to play Lelouch again somewhere SO hard ;;;;;

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13th April 2008

[PUBLIC] 20:21 - Sun 13th Apr 2008|

Bullet-point update because I'm made of fail and suchlike, but knew this, right? Comments off because OMG NO TIIIIME :(

→ My body clearly has an evil sense of humour because I've been utterly exhausted and burnt out after starting to pick up again. Not cool, body, not cool at all.

→ Last minute swift plottings are being made relating to our

drazzi. Watch this space.

→ My dear master

erewhile is an evil, evil owner and is infecting me with things that make me squee horribly. But I can't complain too much aside from the fact it's making me want to play Kingdom Hearts II again only for the sake of seeing that lanky red-headed bastard. Damn you, master, damn you.

→ My sweet

creatore_magico is making my inner magic gentleman veryvery happy indeed. It's wonderful to have an active OC in the brain again and lovely characters to bounce him off of. Fun tiems and much love there.

→ I know I'm not on AIM much and I'm signing off and on. Trust me, loves, when I'm around properly for more than like ten minutes at a time then I'll be around properly. Until then pleaseplease don't think I'm ignoring you because it's not so and in no way should it reflect on how much I love you.

→ Generally grumpy today. Don't know why, might be related to point the first.

→ Redid the profile with a lazy thingy dealy and that's all gravy.

→ Modding... Yeaaaaah, apparently I'm doing more of it. This is no surprise, it's been in the making for sometime and I'm looking forward to it terribly. Another space to watch for developments and awesome stuff.

→ Dr Who is still fucking strange, but Heroes makes up for it a lot.

→ In case I didn't mention it before our shower was fucked for some time. It's not working and we no longer ~~smell~~ have to take baths all the time. Good stuff there.

→

richardiii's Sims are gay. Poor sod...

→ Fuck you, KH... Why can't I quit you? :(

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Current Music Kyle Landry - Hikari (piano)

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7th April 2008

[PUBLIC] 20:31 - Mon 7th Apr 2008|

♥
♥ ♥
♥ ♥ ♥
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

shahni!!!
♥ ♥ ♥
♥ ♥
♥

Have some cuteness!

Sadly, I lack in other things of greatness for you and I am a Ghostie made of fail, but on today I hope you have a wonderful time and remember just how very special you are, babe ♥

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5th April 2008

[PUBLIC] 19:08 - Sat 5th Apr 2008|

Dr. Who just finished...

You lot are all strange. And you: never doubt how much I love you to allow you to put that thing on our television.

What the hell, man? What the hell.

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1st April 2008

[PUBLIC] 15:56 - Tue 1st Apr 2008|

Time to slowly pull myself back together. Has been exhausting and whatnot, but steadily getting back on track. Apologies for falling off the face of the net for sometime. I'll be balancing myself out soon- a large slicing of characters on Poly and un-hiatusing to something more managable for both for RL craziness and general RP tiems. For the first time in about two weeks I'll slide myself back onto AIM since I think I can handle it again now. Jeeze... Emails to write regarding that .-. Hate this part...

I like to hope that while all this insanity has been going on I've not been forgotten, but in reality I can wager a few people most likely have. Such is life, as they say. Regardless, let's shuffle this party back into action somewhat, shall we?

Stuff of late? Not really much to speak of. A lot of not moving very much and a lot of love and attention from my roomie types, but "teh ill" seems to be behaving itself a little more again after the utter faggotry that was a few weeks ago. Utter bullshit. Where the hell is the warranty on this body of mine?

STILL~ ♥

So... New DGM opening, anyone? *___________*;;;;; *bricked*

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23rd March 2008

[PUBLIC] 17:05 - Sun 23rd Mar 2008|

HAPPY ZOMBIE MESSIAH DAY!

If you're in that kind of thing, I guess.

Yeah, this is just an excuse to use my excessive Jesus tags because it amuses me. Don't be hatin' for the humour now, kiddies e_e As stated several months back "I should make a note that not everyone finds Jesus as funny as I do... Not to say I mean to cause any real offense by it or anything, but considering I devoted sixteen-odd years of my life to the man before giving a salute and saying I'll see him on the flip side in what I'd consider to be a parting on friendly terms or whatever, I'm kinda content with the idea that it's safe to mock him a little."

Uhhh... I'm not quite dead. Jesus is not the only zombie around here, it seems.

♥ I miss you guys ;_; Whinewhinemoanmoan, yeah I know :\ I'll be back on my feet (metaphorically) soon enough.

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17th March 2008

[PUBLIC] 12:39 - Mon 17th Mar 2008|

London Expo in MY May time? It's not as unlikely as you'd think ~~money willing, of course.~~

Well, yes, actually :)

rwylin_ni wanted to head up and somehow roped myself,

xaerael and

richardiii to come along for the ride. Literally. ROAD TRIP, BABY! *____* This makes 'teh ill' happy. Well, not really, but happier than it would have been on a train.

Cosplay? Errrrr... likely. With limited funds and time. Heine of Dogs? Yeeeeah. Why not. We can do that in a month. Pondering a touch-up of the Crown Clown Allen cosplay as well since for AmeCon it was SO hot I didn't really get to wear it porperly. Means remaking the mask, possibly the cape, killing an arm and touching up the sword, but I really don't have time for another from-scratch cosplay. If I did, I'm mock up Dilandau from Escaflowne to go with Rwy's Van, or FMA Ed like I wanted to originally but... meh. Money and time and whatnot.

Allen and Heine... White-haired boy trend, I feel .-. Oh well~ Last time I did Kaworu and Ryuichi sooooo~

Drama, drama, WANK. I see much of it while scanning over my flist briefly.

Thank you all for the kind comments and the general 'get well soon!' thing, it really makes me happy. For anyone who was curious about the bloodtests they all came out fine, as I thought. Body still hates me. Over then last few days I don't even want to count how much I've been sleeping, it's not fun at all. Ever forward though, one way or another. Things will be back on track soon, I know it.

Missing you guys ;_; Thank you again ♥

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15th March 2008

[PUBLIC] 12:52 - Sat 15th Mar 2008|

Brr.... Dying Ghostie is dying, but we knew this, didn't we? Not literally of course.

Be assured I miss you guys like crazy but health and dealies and blah and stuff.

I'd make a list of peoples I miss but you all know who you are.

Masterrrrrrrr~ did you see

rp_secrets by any chance? :x

Short post. Stuff to ramble about, surely, but I'm so tired I can hardly sit up.

This is totally a hiatus ._. Sob...

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2nd March 2008

[PUBLIC] 16:17 - Sun 2nd Mar 2008|

Updating in general as far as I'm concerned seems a little fail-like. It's not like stuff hasn't been happening, just that I've not had the energy to update.

An old school friend of mine, Matt, stopped by on Thursday and that was a joy to behold. No sarcasm there, either. I was genuninely happy to see him. We had a good ramble, him and

richardiii got on well which made me happy. And I'll be a little cryptic and say that there's nothing like confirmation from a gay man to make your confidence soar. I really do owe him a lot and it's his little visits like this that make me remember what an awesome friend he turned out to be and how much I missed him being around when he was at uni. He's back for a while now, though, so I'll harrass him more.

Yesterday and today we have stolen a

xaerael and this generally makes me squee. There has been more messing aroun and whatnot. I am contented by this.

My How's My Driving at Poly went surprising well. The crits I got I was honestly expecting and that's a relief. Activity is an issue of late but a 'normal' sleep pattern for this timezone and RL has been chewing on me some. I'm not going to keep saying that, though. The number of times I've said it already should be more than enough. HMD always causes such upset.

I like it because I hope people will pick me up where I'm failing, which they are. It's always going to be a wank-fest, though and my only sigh-huff is that people need to learn the difference between a crit and a needless comment, both giving and receiving. You can take crits with good grace, really. Not all negative comment is intended to wound and people need to stop being so butt-sore when someone dares to disagree with you. I could ramble further, but wahwahcaimoar, I know.

Later, going to have to be strict with myself and cut slice down my Polyians. Sob though I will, it needs to be done and I can't keep putting it off.

Watching

creatore_magico play Eternal Sonata on Xae's 360. I'm not a fan of console wars and I've been auto anti-Xbox because of an annoying friend of mine who is a Microsoft fanboy... Anyway, some things of late are tempting me. I've always said I won't go running out and buy a console unless there's something worth it. Over a year and a half later the 360 is looking appealing :|

Anyways! Socialing again. Brb~

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18th February 2008

[PUBLIC] 15:08 - Mon 18th Feb 2008|

Owen just linked to this:

AND SOME FARKIN' CHICKEN NUGGETS!

*resumes dying*

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amused but still dying

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[PUBLIC] 12:45 - Mon 18th Feb 2008|

I hate catching colds. I mean, I know EVERYONE hates getting colds- they're gross, your eyes water, your throat feels like crap, your nose may as well be grated off for how much you end up blowing it and it's generally crappy. But the real reason I hate colds is that mixed with 'teh ill' and thus my terrible immune system it kills me. Not literally, of course, but it drains me. I can't really sit up for long, except to sneeze and I can't brain and all that good stuff.

To take a leaf out of my dear

erewhile's book; I hate everything, and that has been the phrase of the last few days while I've been WHINING like a bitch about being ill. I am a whiny little sod when I have a cold.

On the whole draining and stuff going on here thing... Guys, I love you dearly, and trust me I'd be around online more if I could be, but illness and hobos kinda puts a damper on that idea. I swear, I will be back shortly, but I posted a semi-hiatus for a reason D: Little more patience, sexy people. I WILL return to you in a flurry of sparkles and roses... Or something.

Additionally, I promise if I'm online an able to speak I will reply to you TAT;; Don't think I'm ignoring you, for the love of monkies. Don't make me spank you guys with a sexy paddle, now.

As far as happy making goes, I have tea, I have pancakes, I have zombies to kill on Resident Evil 4 via professional mode, we watched the first season of Dexter which was ( Spoilers? ) Good stuff. Of course, we'll be plowering into the second season as well. As well as that, our happy hobo

richardiii has introduced us to his Chimeran Mirage RP game thing... And it's really fun. Muchmuch love.

Still, I'm sure all us PW-types have seen this already, now you can own the song in all it's epicness.

Stuff, sneezing, bitching, whiny, moaning and generally shitty. I'm dead sexy, you know you want me and all my snot. C'mon, baby/babies (I'm not a picky bastard), let's get it on ♥

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Current Music Me, if I can be called 'music' shouting things like "WANKERS!" after each sneeze

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12th February 2008

[PUBLIC] 14:07 - Tue 12th Feb 2008|

...fuck. Yes, that has pretty much been the word of the hour since I woke up properly an hour or so ago. Fuck. I'm so damn relived. He might not been alive now and that... Fuck.

Fuck.

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